Firecrackers

The other day my house shook and vibrated for a few seconds. “That was an explosion!” my husband said. We later found out someone had dropped off a not-quite-empty propane tank to the garbage transfer station we live near. I don’t think anyone was hurt. Days earlier, a boat in the nearby marina caught on fire (from 4th of July celebrations) and melted black smoke into the night. In my garden, I planted some crocosmia because I love their red hot shoots during mid-summer.

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red firecrackers

Sometimes all of this July fire energy gets me crazy! But this year I seem to have a good balance down of work and pleasure and mixing the equations of the two together. I’m thrilled that this year we seem to be having one of the best Pacific Northwest summers in recent years. (i.e. We didn’t have to wait until July for some over 70 temps.) Its been warm (not overcast). Hot (but not too hot). And I’m busy (but not totally strung out).

Last week I had a wedding for friends in Leavenworth and it WAS hot though! We experienced gorgeous mountains for camping and a night sky that took my breath away. A few days later I was back at another wedding, this time at a golf course playing Pachelbel’s Canon for the new Mr. and Mrs. Rossman.

This week, I play at Substrata Music Festival, an ambient set for string quartet composed by Christina Vanztou. I’m looking very forward to this! I get to play with some of my favorite musicians, all fabulous women on the music scene. That’s Saturday night. Then Sunday morning will be a low-key breakfast/brunch couple sets of duets with cellist Jackie Robbins. We’ll be at the Ship Canal Grill from noon – 2pm.

This here’s a picture of another little firecracker, my daughter.

Zephyr at the harp, 2 years old
2 years old adorable firecracker

A New Home Page

Well, it seems like I’m on monthly update track. Let’s see if the new home page on my website inspires me to do some posts a little more frequently.

To summarize: this month has made me happy. June gave me four new harp students (all of them eagerly awesome). A seven year old student said, “you have a happy house!”

Of course, I knew that it also had something to do with the 10 feet of sidewalk chalk art leading up the walk that my daughter drew.

welcome!

On Mother’s Day I played duets with my good friend, pianist Josh Rawlings at  Overlake Country Club. Josh is so talented and the gig was so much fun. He’s schooling me on how to read jazz charts. Now he’s touring this summer with the funky, soulful Allen Stone – awesome!

Harp + Piano

At the end of May, I played new music a la Debussy and Stravinsky, written by Hanna Benn and Evan Flory-Barnes at Century Ballroom for the 100th year anniversary of the Rite of Spring. It was another fabulous show with some of my favorite musicians in town to play with. And to think… life is this good and its only the beginning of summer!

Danse Infernale

“Babe I’m Gonna Leave You”

I’m doing some Spring organizing – it feels pretty good! Last winter I performed Led Zeppelin songs with the Seattle Rock Orchestra. Growing up, I listened to a lot of classic rock, so this was such a treat to dig in to pieces I’ve loved for so long with some amazing Seattle talent. Victoria Wimer Contreras rips it up!

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A Guidepost at Winter’s End

I am driving listing to a poem on KUOW written by Carolyn Wright. She is a Seattle poet I have taken classes with. I perk up because she is about to read a ghazal (pronounced guzzle), a poetic form I happen to be fond of. I am all ears when the poem subject matter is given, the Newton CT shootings. The poem is called “Ghazal for Emilie Parker”. When Emilie’s father, Robbie Parker, spoke about teaching his 6-year-old daughter Portuguese, she was prompted to write the poem.

I am covered in shivers by the time she finishes reading, a litany of the fallen children’s names concludes the poem and am weeping as I reach my destination. As a new mother, I am extremely concerned about the prevolence of violence in America today. I feel old when I say, “it wasn’t like this when I grew up!”

But it’s true.

Our politicians give me little comfort, even though nearly everyone and every measure I voted for last Fall passed.The Sequester has sent a very poor message to America’s people from Washington D.C. and I feel terrified that like The Sequester, America’s politicians may stalemate how we discuss and move forward with America’s serious problem with gun violence. Its up to all of us to chime in, no matter what our opinions are, and tell our legislators what we’d like to see change. Clearly, something must change, and I hope for it to be a succession of wise, compassionate and brave moves.

Contact your U.S. Senators here.

Now, I don’t want to get all preachy on you! But do indulge me. I’m going somewhere I promise.

Candace Pert, a reknowned phychopharmacologist, wrote a book called “Molecules of Emotion”. I happen to be half-way through this book, which is required reading for my therapeutic bedside music program. What I thought would be droll, is a surprisingly exciting autobiography of her work at the top of the scientific world in America. Since the mid 1970’s she has been at the forefront of psychopharmacological study (ie. how the brain responds to phychoactive drugs, naturally occurring in our body and otherwise). She has pressed against an all male establishment since the beginning of her brilliant career, and worked on discoveries that effect cancer and AIDS research, as well as researching what parts of the brain are used when our bodies release natural “feel good” endorphins. In the words of spiritualist and M.D. Deepak Chopra,“Pert was one of the first Western scientists who was able to explain the unity of matter and spirit”, aka the mind, body, soul connection.

She In 1975, she was intentionally left out receiving a of a major award because she was a woman. Instead of burying her head in the sand, as she puts it, she confronted many key players, only to be ostricized by her colleagues. Details in her writing of this actually raised my blood pressure! I share this last bit with you because March is Women’s History Month.

I arrive at home, and decide to Google Candace Pert. I can’t believe what I see. Only yesterday she wrote a very compelling take on the Newtown shootings! What timing! You can read it here.

This article provokes an eloquent suggestion that anti-depressant medication of a certain kind, Selective Serotonin Re-uptake Inhibitor (SSRI’s) should be looked at as an emotional trigger to mass shooter’s psychologies. She asserts there is just as much concern to bring the use of SSRI’s to this discussion as the NRA and gun lobby issue, video games, media/entertainment’s glorification of violence, the flaws of our mental health system, etc. If this interests you at all, I really do encourage the reading of her article (she as far more scientifically eloquent than I!).

Dr. Pert informed me in an email that the following statement is untrue. However… even correct labeling does little good. That said, she points out that the FDA does not insist that drug companies label SSRIs, which according her cause, can have the side-effect of violence! After reading her article, and knowing the back (her)story of what sort of ethically honorable woman she is, I believe that the FDA and Congress need to put some pressure on drug companies; that anti-depressant medications be initially administered by psychologisists exclusively; and that we check in with ourselves quite seriously about the ways in which we allow big corporate advertising to manipulate our rationale. (How many drug commercials do you see on any given TV break suggesting that you can simply ask your doctor for whatever it is that you want and obtain it?)

(Uhmerica by Regina Spektor is an anthem to my country’s gun fascination. My two-year old daughter is Regina Spektor’s biggest fan and she happens to love this song.)

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“Science is a process, not so much dramatic results,” Pert says. Any artist will tell you the same is true for their artform. Practicing one’s scales is far from glamorous, but an essential part of the process in order to achieve skill. As a harpist, just tuning alone can get annoying and frustrating, but without it, well… forget about it! Practice IS the practice.

Before reading Pert’s book, I had never thought before that the unknowns of running scientific experiments can be compared to making art. The “creator” has the general idea of what they are going for, but not always know how to get there. One may end up discovering something entirely different than planned. There is beauty and meaning is this type of work.

In the creative process, opening up to unknowns can be raw and unnerving, but they often expose a deeper layer to the task at hand. There are signs along they way that tell you you are going in the right direction. When themes happen in life, they’re like personal mini-movies; subject matters that one should be paying attention to.

This happened to me today when several of my interests and “current themes” intersected in an unsuspecting way – Poetry, Violence in America, Healing Arts, Science. I believe that these signs are guideposts that are pointing me toward the right direction at this time.

Starting this month, I’ll begin interning as a harpist-in-residence at NorthWest Kidney Center, playing calming music for patients and staff. My plan is go forward and work at this and other healthcare facilities and do the same. Which ones? I don’t know, but I’m sure there will be a guidepost for me.

Marriage Equality for Washingtonians!

Yay for Marriage Equality! It would be my great pleasure to play harp at any same sex wedding ceremonies coming up this year!

Washingtonians voted progressively last fall on a number of issues, one of them being legalizing same sex marriage. So… to anyone gay reading this wondering if I’m the right harpist for you at your nuptials? – YES. I’m extremely in favor of love overruling bigotry, repression, stagnation and negative thought patterns. Finally, a little righteousness has been given the main stage. Congratulations!

January is a major network-y month for me. I worked at the monolithic Seattle Wedding Show (in high attendance despite a Seahawks playoff game) and am poised for this weekend’s wedding show up in Everett, where you can find me on Sunday. Anthony at Monte Cristo Ballroom in Everett has asked me to play as a preferred vendor for his clientele, so I’ll be playing there for an open house on Thurs. March 8th.

In non-wedding news, I’m lining up a therapeutic harp internship at  NW Kidney Center in Sea-Tac for patients on dialysis. Music in clinical settings has been proven to alleviate anxiety and pain, not to mention help family and staff feel more at ease. This is ongoing work for me – more news to come in the coming months- so I’ll just leave it at that for now.

I’ve spent the past three Tuesday afternoons over at Bright Water Waldorf School playing music for play rehearsals – pictures from the upcoming performance forthcoming. Its pretty adorable to see 5th graders dressed up as gypsies, fairies and ducks!

Onward and Upward!

Mnemonic Device for Success

My mnemonic device for success in music is PRETH. It looks something like this:

P – Performance $

R – Recording $

E – Events $$$

T – Teaching $$

H – Healing $$$

P is for Performances. These are public shows, orchestra concerts, new music, dance performances, art performances. These are typically events that occur in theaters, halls, public centers (such as Seattle Center), festivals (such as Folklife), clubs, restaurants, museums (last February I performed solo at both Bellevue Art Museum and Seattle Art Museum for after hour patron and public events) and in parks (I have played for the City of Seattle Parks and Rec summer buskers program).

Performances for me don’t usually pay a lot. Sometimes they do, but I can’t rely on them to be a predictable amount. Sometimes I know in advance what I’ll get (orchestral work is forthcoming); sometimes I have no guarantee at all (restaurants and particularly club work). Performances for me can range anywhere from from $0 – $500. Regardless of pay, performances are an essential part of a working musician’s career. It is when I play with my musical family – people like Evan Flory-Barnes, Josh Rawlings, Aham Oluo, Jherek Bischoff to name a few. It is also how I get to play with my peers in public, tell friends to come out and hear me play and hopefully get exposure to some new ears. Performances are the “art” part of a musician’s career, when original songs are played and/or audiences are entertained. Admittedly, I don’t do as many concerts as I’d like to do, largely because I’m mother to a person under the age of two and sleep is unpredictable and precious to me. I can’t be going on stage at 11pm anymore. (groan) I know. I’m boring. I could get depressed and think missing out on something, but I usually don’t. I get to be mom to an awesome little girl (who happens to be fond of music already) and parenthood has made me hip to trying other means of making money in the music biz. Which leads me to the next letter.

Pretty Abandoned

R is for Recording. I don’t think I’ve tapped into my fill potential here. I’ve almost exclusively recorded other people’s music. Out of 100%, I’d say 85% of the recordings I’ve done have been when other musicians are calling me to work on their albums. I’ve been fortunate to have done recording work with some very inspiring and easy to collaborate with people, like bands Hey Marseilles and Secret Chiefs 3.

Albums I want to do personally are #1 my own songs dammit! Q. You write songs? How come I never hear them? A. I am a lazy, slow, audio ludite. But I’m getting better!

At least I have a Soundcloud page and an audio/video page on my website. In the Spring of 2012, I had the awesome chance to be one of the primary musicians (my musical co-collaborator was Saskia Delores) on a huge installation that well-known fiber artist Mandy Greer got commissioned to do at Seattle Center. We recorded hours of tracks at my house and in the field and then played the pre-recordings during the dance performance (under direction of Jessica Jobaris) while I played and sang live on top of those recordings.

Ok. So, back to the R in PRETH: I am putting my twinkle toes in the recording pool this Christmas and have done a few tracks for you the hear, download and hopefully drop a few dollars and cents on a Bandcamp site – coming very soon!

at Jack Straw Productions in 2009

E is for Events. These are private jobs and they make most musicians who play them a fair amount of bread. For a harpist, its fairly predicable seasonal work. Summers are always taken up for weddings. December is always booked with company holiday parties and holiday concerts. Events are categorized as anything where I am background music and/or I am paid privately by an individual, company, hospital, or business entity. I usually like these jobs because I end up meeting interesting new people. In other words, they are weddings and special occasion events.

Once, I played for a wedding of two men (before WA state passed the historic Ref. 74) and they wanted me to play all Dead Can Dance songs on harp – it was so much fun! I’ve been invited to artist colonies in MN, WA, OR and CA. I’ve played at the Microsoft campus. I’ve got an upcoming school concert that I’m very excited about, and every December I play for at least one Seattle Waldorf School’s winter spiral (when kids toddle through a labrynth of evergreen boughs to the center of a spiral and light a candle, eventually making the room a magically candlelit sanctuary by the end of the ceremony). Its one of the most enjoyable things I do every Christmas.

Waldorf Winter Spiral

T is for Teaching. Frankly, I wish I had more students. I’m eager to teach actually. Two years ago I resigned from Holy Names Academy adjunct music faculty for a maternity leave. I’m still trying to get back from it! Honestly, teaching is something I had always put on the back burner – having students from time-to-time, but not really going out of my way to advertise. In that way I’ve had random students come to my home who have lived in my neighborhood, or I’ve gone to their home. I’m flexible. My friend Leslie asked me to teach a couple of classes on improvising at the harp and playing harp in a band at her harp camp. Now, I’m itching to share some knowledge about the harp once more. I’m ready to take on students of all musical backgrounds and ages. I’m excited to say, I’m re-opening my home teaching studio in Seattle and also teaching Saturday mornings at Music Works Northwest in Bellevue.

H is for Healing: Did you know that the harp is one of the oldest instruments used for therapeutic purposes? Did you also know that caves in current day France have paintings of a harp that date back to 15,000 B.C? If that doesn’t blow your mind, then perhaps knowing this will: Soothing music will make a person relax; which causes their breath to deepen; which has a domino effect of increasing oxygen flow to the brain, balancing hormones, neuropeptides, and a number of other regulating systems. What music, specifically soothing sounds, can do is to allow the body to relax, and thus unwind that tense state. In contrast, people who don’t take enough deep breaths never allow themselves to be de-stressed and can remain chronically stuck in a “fight-or-flight” state. Music is a tool for good health and recovery from illness. Harp is a primary musical instrument in fighting off stress!

Dr. Mitchell Gaynor’s book “The Healing Power of Sound” is just one of the many scientific books that medically back up the human response to musical healing. Obviously, not all music heals every person in the same way. But certain instruments, particularly long resonating instruments like the harp, are universally recognized as being therapeutic. For instance, the long fibers of the human body resonate with the long strings of the harp more than any other instrument.

This is why I have undertaken a clinical certificate with the Clinical Musician Certification Program aka Harp for Healing to become a therapeutic musician. After I complete a 45 hour internship in a clinical setting, I will then officially be a Certified Clinical Musician (CCM). I intend to play at the bedside and in clinics where my harp music is needed and welcomed.

Q. What is the difference between a therapeutic musician and a Music Therapist. A. Capital letters of course!

All joking aside, the Music Therapist (MT) has a degree in Music Therapy. MT is the active rehabilitation of a patient’s condition with music as the tool. A MT likely can play therapeutic music, but their job is primarily to work with a patient directly in an active way.

Conversely, a therapeutic musician has a certificate to play at the bedside and do not have a degree specific to this work. They work in a passive environment, playing music for clinical patients as well as their staff and family to alleviate stress, pain and discomfort. This can be in the form of bedside music or music in a lobby, operating room, post-op, or neo-natal unit, to name a few clinical places.

And there you have it – my secret to personal success as a musician! I have posted this message partially for myself alone, just so that my goals become more real and take solid shape. I have also written this for other musicians to hopefully look at their own careers as a legitimate business. This is the model I dreamed up for me. I’ve been half way there for years and just now have thought of this mnemonic device to help me stay focused and complete my plan to success as a professional working musician.

A New Computer for Election Day!

There is so much to say on a blog when you’ve been absent for six months. The biggest news: I have a new computer! I am extremely grateful to be using this new fabulous machine!

The old Mac impeded upon my ability to upload video properly (so I’ll be fixing that previous entry) as well as record any music at home; the old computer’s memory was full. Now I’m back in the 21st Century and very excited about it.

My focuses this Fall are (in no particular order):

Fall City pumpkin patch

Mater Matrix Mother and Medium with Mandy Greer

These are some of the photos (taken by Rodrigo Venezuela) from Mandy Greer’s Mater Matrix Mother and Medium performance at Seattle last month, in May 2012. It was a pretty amazing integration of pre-recorded harp and voice with live music performance on top of that; costumes by Mandy Greer; choreography by Jessica Jobaris.

Dupen Fountain
Dupen Fountain
Muse in the Grotto
Muse in the Grotto
Siren
Siren
Spinning Measuring Cutting
Spinning Measuring Cutting

Leap! Spring! (And Thoughts about Time)

It’s a leap year. We got an extra day in February, a bonus of time. Time is elusive and continually slipping from my grasp as I travel on this journey as an artist and a mother. So with this gift of extra time in the year, I have taken a leap into the future.

I had decided on yoga at noon. We made a scrambled effort to leave the house, Zephyr and I. I forgot nothing but her hat, so I tossed up her hood, coat completely unbuttoned in the wind, but since that is her element I told myself that the winter air was good for her. We got ourselves up the 45th and I dropped her off  at Sutra’s babysitting (the only yoga studio I know that offers it!), but by the time I got to the studio I was locked out. Bummer! I knew I was testing my limits of time. I couldn’t be too disappointed though, since and tried. Besides, baby was in a fussy mood anyway, so we went to the library instead and then at home, I put her down for what became a 2 and 1/2 hour nap.

During her nap time, I sent out my Harp for Healing application – one of my great leaps! Then, I walked my crisp envelope to the mailbox down the street (alone!) (The rarity of not schlepping baby or bags of baby things or harp gear was divine.) In this bouncy moment, I took in the daffodils with their nubile tendrils so tenderly exposing themselves, so vulnerable and new to the world. I have been culminating on this new life direction for some time and am eager and confident about my decision to take up a new element of music in my life.

My friend, David, came over to visit this afternoon for some 3 o’clock coffee and cookies. Zephyr was asleep but within ten minutes of her waking, she was running around the house bringing him books and trinkets, showing off her personality with great flair.

I believe that art heals – from knitting to music, from active to passive activity. The Mind, Body, Spirit connection is something that older cultures have taught us the importance of (Native Americans, ancient Greece) and I advocate for more of this in today’s world, especially during this time of massive change. Studying with Harp for Healing will give me the title of CCM (Certified Clinical Musician). A few weeks ago, I became certified to practice Reiki Level 1 – my other leap!

I’m so excited for these two big changes in my life toward the healing path because I believe so strongly in the mind’s capacity to effect the body and the role that art has with that healing. I am reminded one of my favorite Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. quotes: “Trust is knowing how to take the first step, without having to see the whole staircase.”

I have faith in this aphorism and I have faith that music and art can be a mainstay not just in my life, but in the world around me.