I don’t speak French, but I can tell by the way she sings, that it is a love song of the most high devotion. She is smitten and lovestruck to the core. As she sings, she idolizes her lover, seeing him through rose-colored glasses. This is why I love playing that tune at weddings and recommending it to people even if they say they don’t know the song. Once I start playing for them, they soon realize they’ve heard it in some movie or commercial. The thing is, “La Vie En Rose” is sort of timeless.
The song plays to our highest ideals, not just about love, but about life in general. “La Vie en Rose” is looking at life optimistically. It is living rosie dreams and seeing the beauty in every day life. It is stopping to smell the roses. It is embracing imperfections and loving despite them. La vie en rose is “live and let live.” It is having ideals. Dreaming big. Finding joy in one’s life and being in the present moment. In literal translation, la vie en rose means the “pink life.”
My Wedding May 3, 2008 (Seattle, WA)
Some say the meaning of the song is that of naïveté, that everything will be fine without paying attention to details. Assuming that situations will unfold in your favor doesn’t inherently mean that you are not paying attention, or working towards a positive outcome. In fact, I have found that the more I am invested in my situations, the better I feel through involvement.
Harp Escape vol. 6 video is a song I composed called, “Slowly, Falls the Snow.” This song is about difficult good-byes. About seasons changing, and seasons of life changing.
I wrote this song while working as a Certified Clinical Musician. One morning when I was playing therapy harp at the bedside for a client, this song came to me. I had visited this person a few days earlier. They were on hospice, and after two weeks, they were still holding onto life, even though they were very near death. I wasn’t even sure my patient would be alive when I arrived. Loved ones and caregivers of this person said they appeared to be struggling with letting go.
It was the end of winter, and the very last cold days were hanging on. We had a rare snow that reached the lowlands, and it would certainly be the last snow before spring. Outside the window were evergreen hedges with bright, white snow glistening on them. Under the sun, slowly, the snow fell melting.
A version of sheet music for “Poor Wayfaring Stranger” came into my possession in 2020 Lockdown, as I was taking yet another neighborhood stroll. (1/10/22 update: download your own sheet music of this song.) I stopped to look at a Little Free Library. I found an unassuming prayer book (whose name I have since forgotten because I’ve returned the book), and in the back of it were songs with notation, hymnal style. As I spent some time learning “Poor Wayfaring Stranger,” I was intrigued by the somber lyrics and the story they told. The struggle of the character in the song felt very relatable (and still does) compared to what the world has been going through in Pandemic Times.
Hidden gems of the LFL
History of the tune “Poor Wayfaring Stranger” comes from Civil War Era American, folk and gospel. It is possible that the song may have traveled to America with a German immigrant and been adopted into early 19th Century American folk singing. It is also possible that, given the time frame and the gospel nature of this tune, that “Poor Wayfaring Stranger” morphed into a Negro Spiritual, as it has a strong Christian message and speaks of a troubled world.
My solo harp version of “Poor Wayfaring Stranger”
Melodically, this folk tune probably traveled by oral tradition, meaning the notation wasn’t written down. The first time words of the song officially show up in America, they were inscribed inside of Libby Prison by a dying Union soldier. For this reason, “Poor Wayfaring Stranger” was also known as “Libby Prison Hymn,” however that name didn’t stick. More commonly, the song is also known as “Wayfaring Stranger,” “The Wayfaring Stranger,” or “I Am a Poor Wayfaring Stranger.” In the 20th Century, this song was recorded by musicians Johnny Cash, Emmylou Harris, Jack White, and Eva Cassidy.
“Poor Wayfaring Stranger” speaks to the trying times of the human spirit on the verge of death. The tune is part Christian hymn, part prayer, part woeful song, part ode to Everyman’s journey,
If we look at the lyrics (which also have nuances like the title), the 1st verse is:
One of my all -time favorite poets, Laurence Ferlinghetti, the great American bard and book publisher, died this spring just shy of his 102nd birthday. From his poem “A Sweet Flying Dream” We drifted wafted easily We flew wingless Full of air our hair Buoyed us We trailed our slim legs In streams of silver air There Was nothing blowing us down Or away From each other
We cannot escape one another. Even though we haven’t been able to physically congregate for a year, we also cannot ignore each other. Though we may feel isolated, worried, and fearful as some of the outer world opens up, we are all floating in this unknown realm together. And if indeed we are flying, it brings us levity and sometimes loss of control. At times it might be easier to just let go.
I have wild dreams about what I’d like to see happen next in my life. Partly encouraged by an artist residency at Centrum; partly in response to the pandemic, I sense a new beginning on the horizon. A new chapter of life for us all is imminent. It is here in fact. There is no holding back, so, best fly with the tricks of our highest ability.
We are in the darkest time of a very challenging year. As we enter this winter season, we celebrate the light within and travel to inward time. Harp Escape taps into an old use of music, used as sound healing for your self care. Sufi mystic, Hazrat Inayat Khan said “The use of music for spiritual attainment and healing of the soul, which was prevalent in ancient times, is not found to the same extent now. Music has been made a pastime…”
Join me on Patreon for Harp Escape’s Meditative audio recordings, sheet music and more. Once a month, I bring you high quality Meditative Harp Music audio recordings (ranging from 25-55 minutes), a Relaxing Music Video from my harp studio and places in nature, and sheet music arrangements. All of this music is recorded intentionally for you to find a relaxing space for meditation and mindful daily ritual, for you to take a break from the demands of your life and breath deeply, while listening to the healing sounds of the harp’s vibrations.
It is Veteran’s Day and I miss my friend Crysta Casey, who was a military journalist, poet, and painter. We met in 2002 at Red Sky Poetry Theatre (Seattle’s longest running open mic series). We were quite different people – she was 25 years my senior, a military veteran, and sufferer of extreme mental health issues – yet we had a very casual and organic friendship that came together quite effortlessly. It was only after her death, did I realize she was also my mentor and artistic advisor.
After the reading that night, Crysta and I talked on the street for a long time. She smoked cigarettes as we realized we shared similar poetic influences (Anne Sexton, Sharon Olds, the Surrealists, and others). We exchanged contacts to meet up and share poems. What started as frequent cafe meet-ups to read/critique each other’s work, eventually turned into a weekly date in Crysta’s Belltown apartment with wine and food and an exchange of books and literary magazines.
Therapeutic music is an art based on the science of sound. It is typically live acoustic music, played or sung, specifically tailored for a person’s immediate needs. During this pandemic, though my work as a musician has been severely limited in-person, Harp Escape online has blossomed.
Harp Escape
I have created Harp Escape videos (on YouTube) and audio (made available to Patreon supporters) with the major goal of decreasing stress for my listeners in mind. Benefits of soothing music are many, like allowing the body to relax, unwinding tension, and anxiety relief. Music can also and aid in the healing process. Perhaps one of the most fascinating things I have found in studying music for therapeutic purposes, is that it encourages a listener’s breath to deepen and slow. This relaxation has a domino effect and does several things to benefit our body like:
Love is the end of isolation. Sometimes, when I have meditative moments of insight, I get messages of clarity, wisdom, poetry like this: Stop trying to be normal. The end of isolation is love.
This week, after the virtual school started for my 4th grader, but before the preschool has started for my almost 3 year old, I crumbled in a day of chaos, fallen under the hammering spell of a low-grade stress headache. In respite, I sat on the porch, trying to find some order in my mind, and how to create a new work/live/school schedule all under one roof. Its Quarantine 2.0!
Harp Escape is a series of videos and recordings dedicated to relaxing and calming music. What started out in 2019 as a YouTube video series, has turned into a pandemic weekly live concert series (on Facebook) and a new hour of instrumental harp every month (on Patreon).
A contemporary of Claude Debussy and Maurice Ravel, Satie was also a part of the French Impressionist movement. He was older that the others at that time and somewhat reclusive. He was a bit of a mentor to some of the younger musicians at the time, though his use of whole tone scales was considered unusual. Whole tone scales are based upon the Pythagorean theorum, also known as The Golden Ratio. I think one of the reasons why Satie’s music is so timeless sounding is because they are based upon ancient sounds. These old intervals in the scales are striking because they sound at once soothing, unusual and yet familiar.
So much has changed in the world in just a few short weeks. As a performing artist and a Certified Clinical Musician working in hospice, 2/3rds of my work came to a screeching halt starting on February 24th. Here in Seattle, we were sort of a canary in the coal mine for rest of North America, but that still didn’t prepare me for the severity of the situation we are now in. With restrictions to large gatherings and health care organizations looking to be in solid place for the foreseeable future, I’m being honest with myself. I’m not expecting much harp related work for the rest of the year, perhaps into next year. In the meantime, in addition being with my children, I’m also looking to drum up work through digital media streams, virtual teaching, and new collaborations.
Like many people during this COVID quarantine, I am contemplating my life, my career, and broader still, humanity. Voices of inspiring writers, musicians, poets, philosophers, and scientists throughout history are giving me comfort. The world has seen hard times before, and troubled people look to artists during rough days for entertainment, distraction, and wisdom.
Allen Ginsberg wrote, “The weight of the world is love under the burden of solitude.”
Is our solitude a burden to us now? Or is a comfort? Or both? I have gone through waves of feeling both extremes.
Under weight of solitude and a view of the Olympic Mountains – April 2020 (Discovery Park, Seattle WA)
Side projects that I had been working on or just thinking about are actually now front and center for me, so that is interesting. Harp Escape is one of my projects that is now a main focus.
Harp Escape is an audio/video series that I started last year in response to what I found to be an ever mounting stress. As a working mother of two, as an urban dweller, as a musician commuting to gigs, teaching, and therapy sessions, I found that my city of Seattle was getting more and more congested, loud, and exhausting to drive in and be in. Scheduling was almost just as tight and restrictive. So, as an artist and sound healer, I created an online place for a get away. I wanted to create more breathing space. Harp Escape now seems more relevant than ever, as millions of people lose their jobs, feel anxiety about the virus, and waver in their general trust of each other. Within our lifetimes, we have never lived in a more uncertain age.
Harp Escape presents feel-good relaxing music ideal for quarantine time. It is a love salve. I encourage you to put on some good headphones and escape the world of troubles and take care of your inner world. Here is a Harp Escape Playlist.
Harp Escape Vol. 3 Erik Satie – First Gymnopedie
To take the Harp Escape idea yet further, in response to the pandemic and our global quarantine, I have begun a weekly virtual Harp Escape Concert Series on Facebook. You can find me live streaming @harpescape at 6:30pm Pacific Standard Time every Saturday.
My husband, Stephen Schildbach, illustrated a contemplative piece for the times using me (and some of our house plants) and as model. You can find more of Stephen’s work on Instagram at Schildbach Illustration
We as a family of four are trying the best way that we can to see through the darkness of this time. There are so many unknowns, but it is in trusting my inner knowledge that is getting me through this, and probably priming me for the uncertain future that is to come.
Contemplating Coronavirus by Stephen Schidbach
The COVID19 epidemic is helping us find out who we really are, and what we are truly made of.
